I'm so Excited.

Can I just tell you that I am handling this SO much better then I thought I would. I don't know if it's the fact that I'm gigantic and exhausted and tired and completely out of control of my life or WHAT but I will tell you this: I am SO excited. I could have up to two weeks here without a person joining this little party. I could have TWO weeks to do WHAT I want to do ALL DAY LONG.

Why was I resisting this? WHY? I just really puzzle myself some times. I had a single e-mail that needed to be sent today and it's sent. I'm doing some clean up work on the computer, filing away e-mails. Archiving. Backing Up. Setting up out of office messages. But seriously. That's it. I have actually NEVER been this free from work responsibility. EVER.

I have a massive list of things I want to do - movies I want to watch in the afternoon, foods I want to cook, markets that are only open during the week that I've never been to, projects that I want to do, walks I want to take. I need this list because even though I'm "free" I do need to feel like a day has a purpose and that SOMETHING is going to happen. Now that I have this list and I am so very excited about it you know what will happen right? I will give birth this weekend. Or maybe not. Maybe this will be my gift from Lexi. Either way I'm totally okay with it. And I'm also okay with not knowing when. I'm okay. And I'm VERY excited.