Decisions as a Daddy

I think we're all a little concerned about how the FH makes his way into the world of the FD....it's not that I've ever questioned for one second if he'd be a Fantastic Daddy - this I knew would be true...it was more a matter of how difficult it would be for him to be that FD. Yesterday he made a decision that had him up a dozen levels on the FH and the FD column.

I have mentioned his trips in the past- he has two big business cycles a year where there is a lot of travel involved. One is in March/April for a couple of weeks and the other is the month of July. The first trip of July would have had him leave tonight and not coming home until the following Monday - that's 9 days. My feeling on this multi-destination 9 day voyage was as long as the doctor didn't see any progress and as long as he was a direct flight from a major hub away I was okay. I didn't like it. I didn't like the idea of being alone those 9 days, or the idea that I could start going into labor and not have my best friend there to support me (I know I would have had a ton of other people around me to support me...but no matter how great, they wouldn't have filled his shoes), and I really didn't like the idea that something could happen and he'd miss this. I knew it was unlikely so I said "you've got to make your own decisions about this....it's your call because at the end of the day I'll be here for every minute no matter what, you do what you think is best for your family....if that's going on the road to make money, etc that's fine...it needs to be your call."

I thought he'd go. I didn't want him to. I was okay with him going. But I thought he'd go. And then yesterday he said something like this to me: I'm not going. I can't miss this. I know that I'd probably make it back for the actual birth but I can't handle the idea of leaving you to do this alone. You're my best friend and the idea that I could leave you to deal by yourself just isn't okay with me. So I'm not going.

Of course I cried because I cry at everything. I don't say enough good things here sometimes...it's too easy to complain and humorize negative situations to such a supportive audience. But I have to say this - yesterday when he said that to me I felt the most special I've felt in my entire life. More special then the day of our wedding, or the day we were engaged or any day before or after. He's staying because he wants to be there for me. Me.